conclusion to the thrilling saga:

"mom I can’t go to fencing today, I don’t know if I can even continue fencing  I get so nervous about it days beforehand and then I can’t do anything and I have several projects going on and" *starts crying*

"We’re just asking how fencing is going because we want to know how you are doing, you’re not forced to do anything"

*keeps crying*

I have that kind of day today
any attempts to cheer me up welcomed

drawing inktobers #18 and #19 in an attmempt to stress down but ha ha my hands are shaking even worse ((I should go eat some fruit and confess to my mom I can’t do fencing rn))ANYWAY!!! this is Unicorn and Trickster from my Fairyverse, they’re the two opposing forces of the Forest. Unicorn here shown in their human-ish form, they’re actually a - gasp - unicorn!!! They are a shameless self-insert, or, actually more a manifestation of my Unicornness- They are a genderless being obsessed with Order and Purity, ridiculously ISTJ to the point of ocd. Roaming the forest trying to Set Things Right - according to their unicorn senses, not according to any of your silly morals. Trickster is, well. You can imagine. A trickster. Is all the genders at once, all the time, going by he/she pronouns interchangeably. He’s also a shapeshifter, but her original form is more a splat-together of Elf, Nøkken, Huldra, ++: a bunch of norse folklorey fae. He, of course, embraces chaos and trickery and just enjoys messing around, especially with mortals. Most probably ENTP as heck. (confession: the only mbti-types I can get a “feel” of is ISTJ and ENTP, but as far as I know these work rly well as opposing personalities and especially for beings of order and chaos)so yeah in my fairy forest there is a force of Order and a force of Chaos and they’re locked in a dance where they ruin for each other, without actually running into each other

drawing inktobers #18 and #19 in an attmempt to stress down but ha ha my hands are shaking even worse ((I should go eat some fruit and confess to my mom I can’t do fencing rn))

ANYWAY!!! this is Unicorn and Trickster from my Fairyverse, they’re the two opposing forces of the Forest.

Unicorn here shown in their human-ish form, they’re actually a - gasp - unicorn!!! They are a shameless self-insert, or, actually more a manifestation of my Unicornness- They are a genderless being obsessed with Order and Purity, ridiculously ISTJ to the point of ocd. Roaming the forest trying to Set Things Right - according to their unicorn senses, not according to any of your silly morals.

Trickster is, well. You can imagine. A trickster. Is all the genders at once, all the time, going by he/she pronouns interchangeably. He’s also a shapeshifter, but her original form is more a splat-together of Elf, Nøkken, Huldra, ++: a bunch of norse folklorey fae. He, of course, embraces chaos and trickery and just enjoys messing around, especially with mortals. Most probably ENTP as heck.

(confession: the only mbti-types I can get a “feel” of is ISTJ and ENTP, but as far as I know these work rly well as opposing personalities and especially for beings of order and chaos)

so yeah in my fairy forest there is a force of Order and a force of Chaos and they’re locked in a dance where they ruin for each other, without actually running into each other

on a less bleak note, this is the new song we’re playing at folk music group!!
I may not be a big fan of all things american but their folk music is rad

(played by our teacher. he sends us recordings so we can practice. I can’t play it this good ha ha ha ha ha)

and when I try to explain to parental figures that there’s just too much and I need to cut some things out so I can get other things in ORDER so I can CONCENTRATE instead of getting overwhelmed I get so much
"well that’s what it’s like being an adult, you have to get used to it"
"yeah but by having a lot of stuff at once you get better at doing a lot of stuff at once"
and it doesn’t help. It does the opposite of helping. I just feel worse about everything

another can of issues:
I have fencing later today and I know I should really go because I’ve sorta. not gone to fencing practice last two weeks with varying validity of excuses, but the truth is that I don’t think I can do it? I wanted to see if I could but I don’t think I can, I just can’t do sport thigns because I get too separated from my body, it’s like I’m all cooped up in my brain and my brain goes too slow for my body and I can’t get my body to move as it should, I’m too scared of moving and I’m too scared of getting hurt, everything is uncomfortable and I get nervous about fencing practice days beforehand and it also affects my ability to DO things because I feel like I don’t have enough time to be productive and get stuff done the few hours before practice and I almost can’t get anything done unless I decide not to go and if just my parents would stop asking how fencing’s going when the only answer I have is a prolonged eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeugh noise. maybe I’m just being lazy but I’m also scared
is this normal

rule51 tagged me in a “list your fav top 10 tv shows” thing and
I’m usually all about lists but I’m too weird when it comes to tv shows because it’s like
- Every non-cartoon series I ever cared for betrayed me in some way (house md, big bang theory [I USED TO LIKE IT BECAUSE I RELATED TO SHELDON A LOT SO SUE ME], doctor who, sherlock, game of thrones……..) and it’s really sad because I watched some of these with my family and it was sort of rly good family time?? But then I suddenly couldn’t enjoy them as much as I used to and quit.
- And I _know_ there are a lot of rly good shows that people keep recommending me but I never get around to watch them because it’s time consuming and I never feel I have time to watch episodes longer than 20 mins and also they’re not cartoons.
- Animes could technically count as tv series but guess what I have weird issues about admitting animes I like or watch soooo
- I don’t really watch tv now and I had only three tv channels growing up and also live in Norway so I missed out on a bazillion things and sorta catch up on some of them now

for what it’s worth I like these:
- Gravity Falls
- Adventure Time
- Steven Universe
- Avatar: the Last Airbender/Legend of Korra
- My little pony: friendship is magic
- Danny Phantom??
- Phineas and Ferb was p great
- I feel like I’m forgetting something important but ugh whatever

If anyone feels like listing up top 10 tv shows and isn’t a worm can of weird issues consider yourself tagged!!!

ha ha eight weeks later and I still don’t understand what our Danish lecturer is saying

ishallwearcosmos
ishallwearcosmos:

wow my mirror is dirtyanyway mom came back from her trip to czech and I got lots of stuff that wasn’t intended for me??- the rly cool blue tights were- the fishing west was meant for my brother but it was too small for him so he didn’t want it, then I tried it on and was like yoo I can’t close it but EXTRA POCKETS?? so I got it- the scarf mom bought for herself but it was so gloriously colourful and I was like ooooooooooooh Im gonna borrow this lots, and mom just gave it to me because she has a million scarves anywayI also got chocolate

it’s a cute selfie even if there are mirror stains methinks. I dress like a slob (a very cute slob) nowadays because of the weather, so here is me being cute in a cute outfit

ishallwearcosmos:

wow my mirror is dirty

anyway mom came back from her trip to czech and I got lots of stuff that wasn’t intended for me??
- the rly cool blue tights were
- the fishing west was meant for my brother but it was too small for him so he didn’t want it, then I tried it on and was like yoo I can’t close it but EXTRA POCKETS?? so I got it
- the scarf mom bought for herself but it was so gloriously colourful and I was like ooooooooooooh Im gonna borrow this lots, and mom just gave it to me because she has a million scarves anyway

I also got chocolate

it’s a cute selfie even if there are mirror stains methinks. I dress like a slob (a very cute slob) nowadays because of the weather, so here is me being cute in a cute outfit